Once I was talking to a friend of mine, he said “I have repented for most of my lifes decisions” I took it as one of the post booz gyans. Later, had some mulling on this for a while. Out of the blues came a question “are all your decisions in line with what you really want “. Blink.
I can’t cheat myself saying yes. Decisions are different from person to person. Can I say decision is a child of thinking? And thinking could be the grandson of experiences. His brothers include memories and knowledge. And experiences are outcomes of decisions again. IT friends might call this as cyclic redundancy check. But that’s true.After making out the history of ‘Decision’, I moved to find out the geography of ‘decision’. Dictionary defines it as ‘choice’. I don’t agree with it.’to choose’ will be an apt definition. Am I the creator of this choice? No I am only offered to select from the available choices. Ok, then choices, are they just in time made? No . every time I make a decision ,I find choices are older than my thinking. So choices are nothing but somebody’s decisions outcomes.
Fairly getting closer to the choices, I wanted to ….but WAIT, for the same decision to be made, two persons don’t have the same choices. To quench my thirst, I decide to drink water but my friend chose a cool drink. Decision also is not the same every time. The next time I chose a cool drink. So decisions depend upon TIME. To perfectly put, series of incidents before making that decision has a larger impact on the decision.
Life is full of decisions, your decision is to read on or you just comment me as ‘this guy has turned mad’. Options multiplied by decisions will give you thoughts. Oh god mathematics now. You are evaluated, respected, criticized only by the decision you make. Infact you are your decisions. I memorize you on your decisions made. I call a drunkard, drunkard because he decides to drink non stop. My brother ran out of my house just now and screamed ‘icecream,icecream’ I was wondering is he calling the icecream or the person who sells it? Damn, the icecream walla is called icecream because he has decided to sell icecreams and tomorrow he will become milk, if he decides to sell milk. I was taken aback. Deciding is not doing but any doing is preceded by a decision. How important is this decision.
Coming to my question ‘am I taking all decisions inline with what really do I want’ .If decisions are so important, taking the right decision at the right time, with all the right choices evaluated will erase dissonance from my life.
Yes, I don’t want to repent for ‘how I have lived’ in my death bed. Instead ‘I want to cherish on the wonders I have made in the life of others’. I have decided to LIVE.
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